Finding Truth Within

How I found my own truth with the help of a fellow Substacker

I was going to give up writing – again – last week. But the Universe had other ideas.

A note found its way to me from augmentedman with a challenge: describe your newsletter in three words. What the heck, I thought. Challenge accepted. I’ve always struggled to come up with the words to describe what it is I do or what it is I write about, so it was worth a shot.

Sure enough, three words drifted up from deep in my consciousness during meditation: Finding truth within. Omg! I thought. That’s it! Three words that encapsulate the essence of what I have been doing for most of my life really. Faced with much resistance and opposition at times, my purpose has been to find the truth that is inside me. The kind of truth that synchronises the whispers from my heart and soul, free from the dictates of societal and familial rules and conditions. The kind of truth that is simultaneously liberating and scary.

Liberating because you get to live according to your own script and scary for exactly the same reason. Because there are always consequences when you step out from the herd and veer off down a different path….

When I talk about finding truth within, I’m not talking about Truth with a capital ‘T’. To be honest, I don’t know if I am even qualified to know what that is. The truth I have been seeking is the kind that resonates deeply in your being, that quickens your pulse and gives you quivering butterfly flutters. It’s when you witness the walls of your own prison, the borrowed and imprinted axioms we have adopted as truth about and for ourselves. Make no mistake: we are all in a prison of our own making, made up of thoughts, beliefs and rules given to us by well-meaning people. Those things helped us survive, not thrive.

It's not an easy thing to watch part of your prison wall crumble. It’s not pleasant when you awaken and become aware of your own sabotaging behaviours. It leaves a gap, like an open wound. One that you will instinctively try to fill immediately because the yawning abyss of emptiness is daunting. Your ego will scramble to usher you back to safety, back where things made sense because you knew the drill, even though it did not bring joy.

Except we are not here to do drills; we are not here to go over the same old ground, repeating familiar patterns. We are not here to live in the mundane predictability of a routine existence. We are here to get uncomfortable. We are here to dig, to unearth the truth that whispers possibility to us in the quiet moment of stillness that catches us unawares. It calls to us until we are ready to listen.

Finding truth within is what we are here to do. To find the essence and frequency of you that God, the Universe gifted to you. It is a winding, convoluted path that sometimes doubles back upon itself. It is challenging and frustrating and painful and exhilarating. It is the stuff of Life.

These meandering thoughts of mine are an honest attempt at finding truth within. These words are written with the hope of causing you to reflect upon your own truth, to reveal more clearly what that might be. Finding truth within has nothing to do with agreement with either me or another person. Agreement is not the goal here. Alignment with your own soul is. That means that whether what I write here makes sense to you or not, whether you agree with it or not, it can only lead you back to your own wisdom and inner truth. It’s about uncovering the story of you.

My deepest wish is that you rediscover treasures you once glimpsed, and thought were lost; may you find your own truth within and the light that shines within you.